I could write a million words about you..

Gave you everything I had, bit my tongue, and silently cried..

When I look back, I wonder if you ever even cared, or loved me too.

I sit and think of how we were, how we have grown, and what lies ahead.

It hurts to know that while you are sitting next to me, you are thinking of her.

Words that need to be spoken, are left unsaid.

How we have grown, remains to be seen, because in the process of growing, we grew apart.


80’s music

I am a HUGE fan of 80’s music. I was born in 1981. The best year ever.


Take a look at the songs that were hits, and you will probably know all the words by heart. Yeah, 1981 kicked much ass.

Top 10 of 1981

What’s your favorite 1980’s song?

I have to say ‘Take On Me’ by Aha! is my favorite 80’s song.


Bucket List

Bucket List – “Things to do before you “kick the bucket”

Here is my Bucket List – (Like me, my Bucket List isn’t traditional)

Most of the things I would like to do deals with traveling. Many people know these places exist and see them in books or online, but to experience the winds, the smells, and see the places firsthand is something I wish to do someday.


1.  Visit the following places

  • Eiffel Tower
  • Portobello Road
  • Pyramids of Egypt
  • The Statues of Easter Island
  • Stonehenge
  • The Leaning Tower of Pisa
  • Sistine Chapel
  • Visit Waikiki Beach, Hawaii

2. See the following things

  • Rain fall in the Sahara
  • A kangaroo in the Australian outback
  • Niagara Falls from an aerial view (helicopter)
  • The Radio City Christmas Spectacular – in person
  • See a Broadway Show

3. Do the following

  • Ride a camel in the Sahara desert
  • Eat a pastry in France, with the Eiffel tower in my view
  • Walk on the green grasses of Ireland
  • Crush grapes at an Italian winery
  • Go to the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade
  • Go to Times Square on New Year’s Eve

4.  Meet the following people

  • Al Pacino
  • A member of  the Ancient Order of Druids
  • A Monk from Tibet
  • Christopher Walken
  • The Queen

There it is. My Bucket List.  I am sure that more will be added  & when one of the items are achieved, I will cross it out.

I encourage you to create a Bucket List as well and try to figure out what it is that you would like to do, see, know, or who  you’d like to meet before you ‘kick the bucket’.

Mercy Brown

The song I listened to was

Sharon Van Etten – Love More


A little history lesson.

Before vampires were sweet,  lovable, and sparkled in the sunshine – they were wild bloodthirsty creatures.

Yes. It is true you tweenyboppers.

Vampires date back to near prehistoric times, but most of us think of one person when we think of ‘Vampire’.. Bram Stoker.

If not, perhaps Vlad the Impaler? And if you were born early 90’s and later, ‘Team Edward’ will come to mind.

This is the story of the tragic 2nd death of a 19 year old girl named Mercy Brown.

Mercy was one of  3 children. Born to George and Mary Brown in 1872. In that time, tuberculosis was everywhere. People were losing their families and friends at every turn. They didn’t know what it was or what caused it but it wasn’t called tuberculosis it was called ‘consumption’. Anyways, the Brown family lost Mary, Mercy’s mother Mary, then Mercy’s sister, and then later Mercy died.  Shortly after Mercy’s death her brother fell ill, so the father (George) griefstricken, decided to  do anything to save his son.

The townspeople convinced the Brown family was under a curse of some sort, encouraged him to dig up the graves of Mercy, Mary, and Mercy’s sister.

This is where it gets strange..

Keep in mind that Mercy Brown died before embalming  was common. During decomposition, it is possible for bodies to sit up, jerk and sounds can come from them because bloating can occur, and if wind escapes by passing over the vocal chords, the body can groan or moan.

Mercy’s father and a group of townspeople gathered to help him exhume the  bodies. The bodies of Mary and Mercy’s sister were decomposed and looked ‘normal’. Mercy’s body was not decomposed. Her nails had grown and she had actually turned over.

Her visual condition prompted the group to cut open her chest cavity and examine her. They examined her organs. The newspaper said her heart and liver had blood in it. It was liquid blood, which they interpreted as fresh blood.They cut her heart out and burned it on a nearby rock.

– Here is where strange gets gross.

The ashes from Mercy’s heart was mixed with water and given to her brother to drink. The folklore said that destroying the heart of a vampire would kill it, and by consuming the remains of the vampire’s heart the spell would be broken and the victim would get well.

It didn’t work so well – Mercy’s brother died about 2 months later.

This site has some great photos and the author had a strange experience at the graveside…

Mercy Brown at Stuofdoom

R.I.P Mercy Brown

Alice in Wonderland

I have had a few people ask me what is it about ‘Alice In Wonderland’ that intrigues me so.

Well, I don’t really know.. It’s a tale that is funny, sad, happy, scary, and unfathomable for some. A girl, tired and weary of ‘normal’ life spots a talking rabbit, follows it, and slips into a world of wonder.

Who hasn’t ever wanted to just leave reality and visit someplace that we could only have ever dreamed of?

Many times I have wanted to.. many times..